An Ode to my lover | Guest Post

Guest Post by Varun Dixit

उसने कहा खेल था वह प्यार जवानी का, कोई पूछे क्या हुआ उस राधा-कृष्ण की प्रेम-कहानी का?

उसने कहा वह सब कसमें वादे झूठे थे, कोई उनसे पूछे उन आंसुओं का क्या जब वह हमसे रूठे थे?

उनका सर रख कर मेरी गोद में सो जाना भी क्या झूठा था ?

क्या झूठा था उनका मेरे सर पे हाथ फिरा के मुझको समझना?

क्या झूठा था बात-बात हमको उनका साजन कह जाना, जब हम जाते तो क्या झूठा उनका वह सिसकी भर के रह जाना?

क्या झूठे थे वह सपने जो हमने साथ में देखे थे, क्या झूठे थे वह प्रेम पत्र जो उसने हम को भेजे थे?

क्या यूँ ही झूठा था उनका हम से गुस्सा हो जाना, क्या झूठा था वह हमारी यादों में उनका खो जाना?

क्या झूठा थे सपनो का ताज-महल जो हमने उनके लिए बनाया था?

क्या झूठा था वह पहला खाना जो उन्होंने हमारे लिए बनाया था?

क्या झूठे थे वह इंतज़ार के पल जो हमने उनकी याद में बिताए थे.. क्या झूठे थे वह प्रेमहार जो मन ही मन हमने उनको पहनाए थे?

क्या झूठे थे वह प्यार से खेल जो हम साथ में खेला करते थे, वह गुलाब की हर पट्टी पे तुम्हारा नाम लिख हवा में फेंका करते थे?

क्या यूँ ही झूठा था वह तुम्हारा मुझको गृहिणी बनकर दिखलाना.. वह मेरे कहने पर साड़ी पहनकर तुम्हारा यूँ मिलने आना?

क्या झूठा था वह यकीन जो मेरे माथे पे तुम्हारा लबों के रखे तुम मुझे दिलाती थी.. हर बार जब भी मैं गुस्सा तुम मेरे चेहरे वह मुस्कान ले आती थी?

वह तुम्हारा मेरे खुशियों में खुश होजाना.. वह मेरे आंसू निकलने से पहले तुम्हारा रो जाना

वह मेरे मन की बात समझ तुम्हारा चुपके से आके मुझको आगोश में भर लेना.. मेरे कुछ बोलने से पहले ही तुम्हारा वह ऊँगली रखके मुझको चुप कर देना..?

वह तुम्हारा रोज़ यूँ मुझसे मिलने आना.. जाने की ज़िद करना.. फिर छोड़ कर हमको न जा पाना..?

वह ढलते सूरज को देख तुम्हारा मेरी बाँहों में यूँ पिघल जाना.. फिर ज़रा सी आहट से तुम्हारा सम्हल जाना.?

वह मेरे छूते ही तुम्हारे रोम रोम का यूँ थिरक जाना.. कहना बहुत बुरे हो तुम.. फिर मेरे गले से लिपट जाना.?

अगर वह झूठा था..तो फिर झूठा होगा मीरा के प्रेम राग..?

झूठा होगा वह हीर का यूँ राँझा हो जाना..वह सोहनी का रोज साजन से मिलने जाना और एक रात यूँ ही उस नदी में खो जाना..?

झूठे होंगे वह राधा कृष्ण के महारास..वह गोपियों का प्रेम योग और वह उद्धव को ज्ञान प्रकाश..?

झूठे हो जायेंगे वह सूर्य के छन्द, वह कबीर के दोहे, वह रास खान की बातें..?

मगर क्या यूँ ही सब कुछ एक पल में झूठा हो जाया करता है.. जिसको धड़कन बना के रखते है वह एक पल में यूँ ही खो जाया करता है..?

एक आखिर बार पूछता हूँ तुमसे क्या सच में खेल था वह प्यार जवानी का?

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Missing Abigail | Guest Post

GUEST POST by Prateek Singh

Isn't it weird. How a person can be normal, be sane and be happy and try as fucking hard to belong and succeed. And fit in but with all those smiles and dances and dabs wants to fucking shout out loud, wants to fucking explode with everything inside him. Just blow up and cry for hours hoping that something fucking lifts this weight off his chest. 

What the fuck is depression? Can it be medically diagnosed ? 
Maybe. 
Can you see it. 
Yes. 
Can you feel it. 
Fuck yes. 

But then why does it feel superficial why does it feel undeserved. And why does it keep coming back. Shouldn't we find depressed people funny? That they fall asleep everyday listening to the same three songs. Crying to the same three songs. Looking at the same 6 pictures. Telling themselves that they're precious. That they don't deserve things that have happened to them but that's okay it's life. It's what it is. And then maybe just maybe if they lie down at 10:23, they can fall asleep by 3:23. Twisting and turning in their own sorrow. Their own fucking broken being. And If they're really lucky. They'll sleep till 6 in the morning. And not be awoken by the same god damn nightmares every freaking 15 minutes. 

Is this depression? 
Maybe. 
Is this worth being worried about? 
Maybe. 
So then why does it feel like it's superficial?
I don't know.
But don't other people have it worse?
Yes they do.
So I am just being a little bitch ?
Yes, I guess. Maybe.
I don't know .
Then who does?
I don't know.

Ever since Abigail left, no matter how much I want to be the person I want to be i can't. she was the only one I could be anything with. And that's what I miss. That person. That feeling. That belief.

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Unsaid Feelings

She's holding the phone in her hand closely and tightly, and continuously staring at the screen where his name is flashing as a whatsapp contact.

He was busy in the office; tired and helpless, took a 5 minute break just to have a decent conversation with her. As he opened the messenger, it shows she is 'online'. He is now thinking to whom is she chatting at 1:00 am? He told himself that she has someone else in her life who's keeping her busy at this hour and they must be having deep conversations and hence I should not intervene and forget about her because she can't be mine.

She's silently lying on her bed and her heart pounds as his 'last seen at 10:00' turns to 'online'. She's now waiting for him to type something. But all of a sudden he goes offline. She now thinks that he came online to reply to someone special in his life and went off. He's busy and there is someone special in his life. Since I was waiting for a message from him but he didn't even bother. I should stop thinking about him because he can never be mine.

# Two people who are deeply, immensely and irrevocably in love with each other, cooked up their own versions of the other person's life, and now they don't even dare to initiate a conversation and yet wait for each other's message. A simple 'hi', which would have changed the entire scenario, died just because of the misconception which they carry around and is now ruining their love for each other. If you love her, go and tell her NOW! And girls, it is no big deal if you initiate because guys like confident girls. Be bold and accept your love for each other because this is the time when we can choose our partner, when we can choose with whom we are willing to live and face obstacles, lay while the sun shines, hug when it's cold, watch the stars at night, share coffee from the same cup, visit places, grow old together and die. Else your parents will tie you to someone else(might even be the most boring person) and just for the sake of society you'll have to spend the rest of your life with someone whom you never loved and probably never will. And somewhere, deep down your heart will ache and regret that "I wish, I would have confessed my feelings to him/her, revealed them when there was time, confronted my feelings when I had the chance and my life would have something else, I would have been someone else, I would have had a life!". There will be no late night conversations, no CCD dates, no cheap alcohol. This is the moment, make the most of it. Feel the power of love!  

So, I hope after reading this post you'll take the first step and won't let the right person go from your life. Share your story with me in the comment section below. I'd love to hear your story. :) 

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Why Fighting Can Be Good for Your Relationship

I know you must be thinking how fighting can be healthy in any relationship. Right? Well, really it is not that bad either.

The simplest and the first logic says 'No TWO people are the same' hence it is obviously difficult to adjust with the other, but sometimes the feelings are so true and strong that you just can't afford to let that person go. So, if you guys are fighting then take it this way: While mixing two materials the reaction between them could generate heat, like it happens in any chemical reaction. Just try to add some chemistry in your relationship! I hope you must have understood by now what I'm trying to say because I am pretty good with Chemistry and I can explain it with fairly good numbers of chemical reactions too.  

        

My second logic goes like this: If you are fighting with your partner it is not because you want to get away from him/her, well that's because you do not like something about the situation and you have full right to tell them that you're not happy as you cannot fake as well. So it's fair enough to have a disagreement sometimes. Here's a little tip from my side that whenever you fight kindly don't lose hope of getting back together because if there's no hope, there's no way. After all, if you can love, kiss, cuddle then disagreements & conflicts comes along with the package and you guys have to deal with it and sort it out, together.

         

If you guys are fighting then it's no big deal because as my third logic implies, it's good to know the dark side of your partner as well so as to know what extent he/she can go while fighting. If he/she's abusing you then you should stop him/her right away because as per my personal experience if there's no respect for each other then there's nothing much left in a relationship. You should not lose your cool over petty issues and there's no room for abuse or violence. Just peace out, lovers.

         

Now the final one and trust me the most cutest logic is: You should have the genuine perception about your partner and if that leads to some kind of argument or cold war then it's okay because later when you guys talk, trust me that will definitely become one of the best conversations. It is that phase where you open your heart and say things more clearly and even accept it lovingly as you have to compensate for the time you lost where you guys didn't talk at all. Inside, you're dying to hear something from him/her so when that happens you giggle a little, curse a bit, and realize how crazily in love you are with him/her. Well I call it 'sleeping phase' in which lovers take rest from each other and when both of them wake up, they feel fresh and more loving.

                  

So next time whenever you guys end up in some kind of argument, don't worry. Keep calm and remember to keep the flame of hope burning, maintain respect and kick start the conversation again. And tell your partner honestly what bothers you and if you think that will make you look clingy, well that's not. Trying to workout things with your lovey-dovey is pretty cool and if you're the first one to start the conversation keeping your ego aside then you're definitely going to earn some respect from your partner as well. 

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7 Inspiring Nelson Mandela Quotes

We all know Nelson Mandela as a freedom fighter, prisoner and the first president to be elected under the new constitution. On 5th December around 8:50 Mandela died because of lung infection at his home in Houghton, Johannesburg. He was 95 years of age; his death was announced by President Jacob Zuma. His funeral is expected to take place at the Union Buildings and his body will be buried at his native village Qunu. 

Nelson Mandela fought for racism, poverty and inequality, and fostering racial reconciliation and that inspired many people around the world. His journey of life had many ups and downs, from being a freedom fighter to prisoner and from the "The Black Pimpernel" to Mr. President.

Here are 7 most inspiring Nelson Mandela Quotes:

1. Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.

2. It always seems impossible until it's done.

3. Resentment is like drinking poison and then hoping it will kill your enemies.

4. I am not a saint, unless you think of a saint as a sinner who keeps on trying.

5. Do not judge me by my successes, judge me by how many times I fell down and got back up again.

6. I am the captain of my soul.

7. Where you stand depends on where you sit.

“Rest in Peace, Mr. Mandela. You will be missed by everyone.” 

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What To Do On Diwali ?

Last night on twitter, a hash tag was trending in India, which was #WhatToDoOnDiwali. So today, when my mom woke me up so early and said “Aj boht kaam hai, jaldi utho”, suddenly that hash tag came to my mind. What comes to your mind when you think about Diwali?  Bursting crackers, fireworks and of course lakshmi poojan, Right? As we all know, Diwali is the biggest festival in India and everyone celebrates this festival with their own twists.

Like in our North India, we celebrate Diwali at night with lakshmi poojan and by bursting crackers, whereas in south, they begin early in the morning. The eldest family member will apply sesame oil on the heads of all the family members. Then after they take bath, and wear new clothes and burst crackers in the morning. Even in east and west, they have their different rituals of celebrating Diwali. However, one thing, which is common among all, is they celebrate this festival with full enthusiasm and great energy. Every year we complaint about the fading colors of Diwali, so by the time you finish reading this article you will understand the reason behind it. 

So here is, what you need to do to save Diwali and do not let it fade:

·         Nokia says “Connecting people”, but my dear friends the truth is cell phones are keeping us away from each other. When there were no phones, people used to meet up and exchange gifts on Diwali. However, whatsapp, we chat and other such apps ruined everything.  Just try to avoid facebook or twitter and spend some quality time with your family and friends. Also rather than wishing on whatsapp and weChat, call your old friends and wish them personally. You can also send some traditional greeting cards to those who live far from your place.

·         Drift back in time when we all used to burst crackers with our cousins and other relatives, for every one of us those days were so blissful. So today, why are we hesitating so much? Time changes but feelings remain same, so live those moments once again with all your loved ones, and never hesitate to approach them first. Call your old friends and cousins, invite them at your home, and celebrate Diwali with them as you used to celebrate.

  

·         Diwali is for everyone and it’s about love and happiness. Spread more by donating your old clothes to needy people. Visit an orphanage and distribute crackers and sweets to the kids. Many people throw/dump their leftover sweets, so I believe we should giveaway some to poor people and make them happy. It is not about big, sometimes happiness is in small things. Try it!

·         Diwali is about togetherness, spend more time with your family and friends, and make them feel special by giving them some gifts. 

·         Clean your house and welcome lakshmiji to your well-decorated house. Decorate your house with candles, diyas, frills, and lamps. Do pujas and prayers with your family and have a good time with them. 

·        As we all know, Diwali is a festival of Hindus and somewhat a Sikh festival as it marks Bandi chhor festival, so invite your friends that belongs to a different religion because Diwali symbolizes togetherness.  

I hope now you know what exactly you have to do this Diwali. It is a festival of lights but just by lighting and decorating your own house, you cannot impress lakshmiji. Light up other life’s just by sharing some love and happiness. 

Wishing you all a Happy Diwali glowing with peace, joy and prosperity. 

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Waiting for 'Forever'

 Jab hona tha juda, to mile the kyun

Pyaar hoke bhi kesi hai ye dooriyan
Pehle tu kehta tha pyaar hai, mene dil pe kia kaabo
aj tu na jane kahan gaya, dil kyun ho raha hai bekaabu
ek reply se milti khushi, tere ignore ko daba rahi hai
aj kyun mujhe teri itni yaad aa rahi hai

Karti thi tab bhi utna hi pyaar, jitna aj karti hu
dil darta hai, ya me aj bhi sharma rahi hu
Jana na door tu mujhse, tere bin rehna hai mushkil
Mile tujhe saari khushiyan, kehta hai bas ye dil
Yaad rakhna mujhe, thi koi teri itni deewani
jisse yaad aati thi teri, par tune uski kadar na jaani

Gussa aata hai, rona bhi
Har ek pal, sochti hu tere baare me
Phir samjha leti hu dil ko kuch bahane se
Ye nahi kehti, wo nahi kehti
yaad aaegi tujhse uski, kya pata tha apni hi izzat gira rahi hu
tere pyaar me pagal me, kyun itne aansu baha rahi hu

kya tujhe bhi aati hai meri yaad, ya bas me hi apna dil jala rahi hu
tune asaani se kaha lets be friends again,
kuch nahi raha mere andar
par kya ye socha, kya kya chal raha hoga mere dil k andar
ek dard hai dil me, jiski koi dawa nahi
ek gham hai mann me, isse koi raza nahi
ab bas tu hi hai wo dard, tu hi ilaaj uska
karti thi pyaar utna tb bhi jitna karti hu aj.

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I'm not ready for it..

Guess what?  My parents are serious. Someone in my relative told them a “perfect rishta” me for. What is going on? 
15 June ’13- I was depressed as I got rejected from Daffodil Software. I was out in the final round and cannot express my anger to anyone. I just came home with a sad face and suddenly my mom said, “Do you want to go to Bangalore”? I thought she must have some good news related to a vacancy in some multi-national company in Bangalore. Then she said “ladka wahan kaam karta hai” and I was like what the hell is going on in my life? That day, I was so depressed with the rejection that I just ignored whatever mom said and simply went to sleep.

17 June ’13- Finally, I’ve updated my profile on “naukri.com” and “monster.com”, I was actually hoping for some good job offers and I even got 2-3 mails from various companies. It was around 8óclock, dad came back from office, and suddenly I overheard something, which in my opinion they should have not talked about it.  They were actually having a conversation about that same Bangalore guy and today they were discussing about his package. Suddenly mom said, “we have just one daughter, don't you think Bangalore is too far?”, so dad replied, “he’s a software engineer and will be great for shivani and I don’t think he’ll work there permanently, he’ll come back after 3 to 4 years”.

My reaction to all this: Firstly, I really want to murder my relatives for this and that Bangalore guy “just beware or I’ll ruin your life for sure”. I mean I’m not ready for all this and I don’t know what I should do? I’m confused and scared. Different people have different suggestions. I will prefer suicide than getting married with some stranger. I don’t know him so how can I marry such a guy? I do not care about his package. I’ll prefer to fall for a beggar instead of marrying him, some Mr. Unknown Richie rich. I’ve so many dreams and I just cannot compromise on them. For me arrange marriage is a big NO. I don’t care what Aditya Bhasin wrote in “The Charm of Arrange Marriage”. Right now, the main issue is that I’m not ready for it. 

Just like I’m stuck in this situation, many girls like me have fallen prey to this vicious cycle. One thing for all those who are going through the same issue, no matter what, never compromise with your dreams, I love my parents too but if they are stubborn then I am their princess, twice of it all. 

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